I was desultorily flipping through the pages of a Nat Geo magazine yesterday, when i came across random pictures of war-stricken children. with pensively sad faces.. sigh. And i couldn't stop thinking about it for quite sometime after.
So after my cousin's wedding, i sat down and sketched a girl. I think she's maybe tibetan or nepalese. The latter is more possible. but i think her chubbyness makes her seem less melancholy. Makes her seem like she's getting enough to eat. Not that eating enough is a problem, i just wanted to convey a pleading sort of tone to her expression..
I couldn't finish it though. Started with the eyes then i felt disconsolate so i simply did the hair and coat. It's sad to think that I have so much. SO SO MUCH. whilst there are those who have nothing to say they have
anything! Here it is... You be the judge. Tell me i'm lucid.

Disconsolate Child
Medium: Pencil on Paper
Date Created: (Started) 01/02/2009
Half of me can
NEVER see myself selling anything i paint/sketch. I don't sell, I give. To the
people i love most mostly. simply because i can never seem to part with something that took so much time to complete(whether it turned out as planned or not)
Yet...
the other half is curious. T
hat half wants to know how much it's worth, if it's even worth anything. Put it amongst the works of monet or renoir or Shanti Marie, and see if it gets picked or even
looked at. Heck, put it amongst the works of our own Malaysians! (there's an aweful lot of uncredited talent out there) What a boost of self-confidence that'd be! =)
One can only dream...Often i joke that since Medical School is soo painfully expensive, I'd sell my canvases for whatever they're worth just to lighten the load on my parent's shoulders. And
still i'd probably have to resort to selling one of my kidneys.
But i do dream. I dream that one day i'd have done enough paintings in my free time to exhibit them and sell them. I dream.. of doing a collection of artworks in various medium relating to Dance, God, Music, or anything spiritual and that these pieces will be put for sale outside the hall where i'd perform my Arengetram. Of course the money will go to charity (unless i'm still 'scrooging' for med school!) ;)
Performing my
Arengetram (
Debutante in Indian Classical Dance) itself is
another dream.